// Sad Music and Other Crap.//

Sometimes I wonder why I give people the benefit of the doubt because it’s a constant slap in the face.  I want to believe that I could have feeling for someone and then things will fall into place… I want to so badly.  I bend over backwards hoping it will work out, but nine of of ten times, I end up being screwed over.  It’s completely my fault too, I realize this.  I’m naive when it comes to a lot of things.

I’m listening to a lot of Missy Higgins to deal.  It just feels like almost a years worth of feelings down the drain and I should move on.

There’s so much I need to change about myself for the better… so much I know if I change, I’ll be happier.

I’m going to sleep it off.