Sometimes I wonder why I give people the benefit of the doubt because it’s a constant slap in the face. I want to believe that I could have feeling for someone and then things will fall into place… I want to so badly. I bend over backwards hoping it will work out, but nine of of ten times, I end up being screwed over. It’s completely my fault too, I realize this. I’m naive when it comes to a lot of things.
I’m listening to a lot of Missy Higgins to deal. It just feels like almost a years worth of feelings down the drain and I should move on.
There’s so much I need to change about myself for the better… so much I know if I change, I’ll be happier.
I’m going to sleep it off.